trust him

trust in the lord with all your heart and lead not in your own understand
pro 3:5

well is hard to trust in the lord sometime
beside the lord who can i trust
who can i trun to help
the lord is my helper
and my shelt my refuse
so God is the want i will trust him

humble like a little children

well today was a good experenice for me, becuase God is teaching me something new. well it all start with tell tim that i fell like not doing chapel. And then tim start to challenge me and say don't thing chaple is a small thing, because when you talk about revival it start with young people but how does young people know about God by going to chaple is a bless ministy. the next day i go to church to do the chaple i don't know which song to chose, then God lead me to sing some of the new song and pastor chew mae and seefist sing, well i well so happy even though we have abit of misstake.

After that we play game with the children, well i am so happy becuase all the children are having fun. then i think about jesus say let the little children come to me, well the reason why jesus say that it becuase he want us to be humble, joyful, and obey him.

God want us to that, the reason it becuase he love us he want to be with us. exmple children see they father they will run toward his father with a joyful heart, when the father is displine his child he want the children to obey. And the father told him this is wrong the children will be innerse and ask forgiveness from his father.

God want that God want us to be joyful the reason is he want us to have joy, let me explan this to you when the children is happy to see dad that mean he love his dad alot. God want us to have joy to be in his preasense. God will displanes me becuase he love me heb 12:5-6 and he want me to listen to his displane. God want me to be innerse in sin becuase he is a pure God .

well God has really bless me thanks tim for you encouragement i need that .

going back to camen highland

well at fist i want to go to camen highland, after the few day i don't want to go to carmen highland the felling in pulling me and push me is like wanted to go don't wanted to go.
tuesday i went to help my mom,in the car my dad is saying that he trust my brother more then me it make me less important. well it did not hurt me fist, well i prentent that he did not say that the. second time he say that it really hurt me it like getting shoot from a gun.

i am angry i did not show that i am angry, i thought my emontion is in control that remind me about wat tim did with his mother in the car it kept reminding me. then question come up to me what do you thing tim should do? i say well tim should control his anger. the last day we all go to the mountain i claim up that mountian my dad wanted to take a picture with me outside it look like we have a close relationship but inside i wanted to push my dad away

when we all going back home to take my brother to go to diner, when my parents started talk to my brother. i fell like i being put into the box, i was felling sad and angry. after the dinner me and my brother going back home.
my dad going to take my sister, my sister read my sms. she got worry when my sister come back she ask me what are you doing with tim, i got so scarde because i don't want to tell my sister what happend i don't want them to judge me.
i pretend to be strong saying, we did nothing but deep down i am afriad. my sister asking again and again i kept on saying nothing she don't believe i got angry and say this is my business none of yours so left me alone.

she was so compassion saying this, you are my brother how can't i care about you? i don't want to talk about the problem, so i go to my room playing guitar. she kept on asking me and i kept on playing guitar. then my father jump in, and i got even more angry, so i rise my voice hopeping that they will stoping asking.
but my dad kept asking, and then i got more angry. my brother come to me, and asking wat wrong my sister told him what wrong. so i say to my dad, you are compare me with my brother.

my brother saying to me that no buddy is compare you, i got so angry and say yes. my brother say i was like we will believe you, i say we just want to play play. then everbody left the room, my father talk to me he say that if you become parents then you will understand.
then my mother wass understand my pain, she say that i love you all if you did not find job is ok you can help me and the hole thing start silent.

then God remind me the verse 1 cor 13 it kept on remind me love does not boast love don't need to prove youseft that you are worth enough. you don't need to prove everything you parent love just the way you are and God stated to heal me

huh i don't like study i like to encourage i got a felling that God is going to call me to became write huh What to do

what i have done to deserve all this pain
you have reason for all these lord
you want to remind me that
your love is sctheching out to me

A cool christian

1.having relationship with God

christian is not a religion is relationship with God,people always thing that when you become christian you have to be holy. See even though we may read the bible or go to church every sunday, that does mean we will have not sins.that is why people don't like to be christian, even though they are born in christain family, but still they denied their fatih. see become a christian is not doing your christian duty, is having relationship with God.

see i can understand God but not knowing him, read the bible is to understand what God like, knowing God is to have relationship with him. if you want to know that person, you won't ask people what is that person like you will talk to him so that you can know him better.
reading the bible is to understand he is a holy God he judge our sins. that is why when we sins we don't talk to God, david was the man after God own heart why? the reason is he have relationship with God he has the intermercy with God.

the bible say in 1 john 1:8-9 if we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. if we confess our sins, God is faith and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteosness. we all have sins that why we need to have the grace of God, grace mean undeserve love. see we all are save by the grace not by workers (ep 2:8)

2.how can i know that Grace of God is abound in my life?
is to believe jesus raise from the dead and confrees he is lord and savior (romans 10:9), when i did that i am save by the grace of God. God does not die for my past sins, he die for all my sins.

that mean he die for your past and future sins,i want to share my testimoney i was not born in a christian family,i got save when i was 13. after i got save i still struggle with my sins. i really thank God that he does not give up on me, i almost give up but he did not. one day God spoke thought uncle ravi, he say that all my sins he has already forgive and he has give me enough grace to overcome all my sins satan put lie on me.

at that time my life begin to change, but i still have that desire, then one day God spoke to me in romans 6. all my sins he has put to dead, at that i say to God all my desire i lay down to you i surrender my life to you. at that time my life has change.

3.a tool to work in my life

to become cool christian is to surrender my life to God, and let the holyspirt work in my life. i may not know what God can do with my life, he can use me just like he use david and samuel.the bible is a tool for the holy spirit to work in my life, the bible stand for (basic instrution before live earth) my life will never be perfect, but i know that God can my life perfect.